Highlights of 2009

Sold lots of art at 3rd Street Stuff

Made lots of paintings

The Omega Institute

My SF studio

Burning Man

Becoming the creative director, editor and designer of Main Line

Going home for Christmas

Goal setting

The Burrow Society


Highlights of 2010

my SF circle of friends

finding out that I’m more than adequate and that there is no box

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I Forgot About the Loneliness

I am still happy about my break-up with Brandon.  It was the right thing to do.  I’m even glad we’re still friends.  I had an epiphany after our break-up.  I realized that I don’t need a boyfriend because I don’t like boredom, I’m not ready for kids, I don’t like jealousy… so many other reasons.  God, I paint better, I have more profound relationships with my friends.  I feel less critiqued.

But there is something missing- this very important something that I don’t have when I’m single.  I don’t have anyone to say they’ll stay.  Nothing sticks.  I filter in.  I filter out.  At the end of the day, maybe someone will be there to hold me, maybe not.  Either way they don’t mean forever.  That doesn’t feel so good.  Feels like a place-holder.  I do want to stay single but I am lonely.